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Oof, I never thought about how healing an experience like that could be, especially when we remove preconceived notions about what healing from shame has to look like. I have so much respect for the Francescas and Double Life Moms of the world!

I also really appreciated your perspective as a mother in this intimate scene—it was the perfect climax to the story.

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Thank you for reading and your insights. “Perfect climax to the story.” 😄

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I'm delighted. Also deeply intrigued. Desiring. Thank you.

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Thank you, Rose. You have been such a generous reader. I love how you bring your turn on, even in the comments. ⚡️

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It was a long day for me, and I’ve had your post running through my thoughts. What a gift it has been to reflect on your experience. I deeply resonate with the idea of ‘making them smarter,’ and I felt such a break in my already emotional body—recognizing my desire for ease and slowing down, yet feeling a paradoxical fire to grow and learn; to experience what you’ve been experiencing, to stretch my muscle, to learn other archetypes of a woman.

Thank you 🔥

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Yay, that means a lot to me to hear I’m having an impact!! Silent horns are playing. 👏🏻

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I absolutely love this piece. I can feel the energy of the scene so clearly, you put us there with a few vivid, well-placed details—the star-shaped rattle, the baby’s curls. Deep gratitude for your vulnerability and transparency around your learning process and internal experience. This is just beautifully rendered, with such reverence for the skill of the top, the depth of the bottom’s experience, and the sacred energy of the space that’s being held. And it’s especially meaningful because, even in communities that should know better, ABDL fetishists are pretty stigmatized. Thanks for this writing.

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I feel a warmth in my chest and a tickle in my belly as I read this and tears emerge from my eyes. I had the phrase, “no one cares” ringing in my head last night after posting and was feeling down about the energy I put into expression. I really apply your feedback! So deeply.

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So so glad to hear this! I’ve actually been in the same place energetically; I put out a new piece yesterday on my other substack that didn’t get the attention previous writings have gotten. Trying to figure out how to connect with “my” people, but it often feels like screaming into a void. I think if we build it, people will come ❤️

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